wasting all of my time (unfinished song)

i’m not sure what to say cause i’m not sure how i feel. it feels right next to you, but i know you won’t steal me away- and that’s okay, that’s fine with me. it’s honestly alright, oh i don’t mind wasting all of my time on you.

if i could put it into words, it’d be the way you laugh. oh, the smile in your eyes, it’s the best look they’ve ever had, and it’s all that i can do just to wonder what’s behind. but no matter what i find, oh i don’t mind wasting all of my time on you.

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alleluia

sometimes it’s hard to find a place to hide in all this mess i made, but i just have to remember that i can look to you, and you will shield me from the rain. it can get a little bit dark when you’re standing here on the ground, and it can be a little bit hard to see you and wish to be found.

lead me, alleluia, show me, alleluia. teach me, alleluia, save me, alleluia, alleluia. 

i’ve lost sight of you because i’m always searching behind me for a demon on my back, hoping i can blame him, for i am soaked in sin just waiting for the flames to attack. but i still know your love is great because you gave up for us your one and only son, and i still know my sins are prepaid in the blood of your pure and holy one.

lead me, alleluia, show me, alleluia. teach me, alleluia, save me, alleluia, alleluia. 

i give you my whole heart, because it’s already yours. take away what i could stand to gain, with your love i could never ask for more.

lead me, alleluia, show me, alleluia. teach me, alleluia, save me, alleluia, alleluia. 

The Man at the Bar

[old soundcloud recording]

everyone gets a little bit crazy. the lights, these lights turn hazy, and i lose my way again.

can i trust the man at the bar? or the one who’s watching from afar? 

can i trust him, mama?  trust him with my heart? 

the years had passed, and so had our childhood. he asked to meet me in the backyard, he said: “nothing that started out this easy should be this hard.”

should i trust him, mama? trust him with my heart? 

oh, i never learned how this goes. am i the only one who doesn’t know? i’ll let him teach me, show me the ropes, we can jump.

should i trust him, mama? can i trust him, mama? trust him with my heart? oh, show me how to start; trust him with my heart. 

little did i know

[rough recording on soundcloud]

little did i know, the closer we did grow only pushed us farther apart. the streetlights and the snow have nothing more to say, and it’s the hardest part.
i thought this was the end, i thought i could depend on you.
swaying in the breeze, the bumblebees and trees are witness to our peace. it still attacks me now; the wondering why and how you left it all in pieces.
i thought this was the end, i thought i could depend on you.

i was blinded by your loving mistakes, i was enticed by your wordless games, i don’t know how to go on from here; i thought you were it for me.

i thought this was the end, i thought i could depend on you.

she was young

[rough recording on soundcloud]

her white dress flowing in a field of green grass, and she told you she loved the color of the sun. you picked her flowers and you gave her pastries and she told you her heart had been won.

but she was young then, she didn’t know better. oh, she was young then, she didn’t know better yet.

her blue eyes danced as she looked right at you when you spoke of days yet to come. the stars were shooting (as they’re often doing) and you kissed her cheek and held her hand.

but she was young then, she didn’t know better. oh, she was young then, she didn’t know better yet.

the good times, they come and go, as i’m sure you’ve come to know. every night can’t be lying side by side, and every day can’t be with her.

oh, she was young then, she didn’t know better. all the love that you taught her she will carry on forever, and she’ll never forget when she was young. oh, when she was young. 

the end of it (lyric draft)

you asked me to choose, even though I had no voice. you wanted me to lose, even though i had no choice. that night was the last straw; first i’d heard of it. those words were the last draw of the gun you’d been savin’.

these voices, they know their way around my brain- and through your lips. these choices, you’re making are the end of it; i’m giving in.

even the skies feel sadness, it may sound foolish but it’s true. every time you lied i believed you, as the sun believes the moon, but she steals the sky night after night.

these voices, they know their way around my brain- and through your lips. these choices, you’re making are the end of it; i’m giving in.

it’s the end of it, it’s the end of it, i’m giving in to the end of it. it’s the end of it, it’s the end of it, i’m giving in to the end of it. it’s the end of it, it’s the end of it, i’m giving in to the end of it. it’s the end of it, it’s the end of it, i’m giving it- and it’s all over.