i know her face now
i know who she is – who she was
in fact i’ve known for a long time now
and it was so long ago i found out in the first place
and all my vicious energy was focused on her face-
but that was before i knew;
thus, her face a blueish hue
her eyes filled up with you
and her heart was swollen too.
her hair, most likely long and sleek
her body thin and soft to touch
i knew that you liked her so much –
i didn’t want to see her face.
i didn’t want to see how different hers might be
hers, surely sharped and edged
her skin smooth and radiant
her smile, one that made you smile-
no, i didn’t want to see her face.
and now that i know (though then i knew), it only makes me think of you.