10-16-17

today was gray. gray like the clouds hanging overhead, though the sun was determined to shine. gray like the way i felt hearing about your life- the life you’ve lived without me in it. i’m not quite sure why i felt so entitled to your days; i guess i cared so much i felt like […]

see

i’m too tired to fall asleep; all i can do is think about you and everything you said. oh, wasn’t everything you meant a lie? now i see, who you were to me- it wasn’t true. how wrong of me to assume that there wasn’t anything but truth in your smiles, and how foolish of […]

gone with the wind (7/17)

i feel the air against my skin warm, and soft, like your touch. the gentle roaming cars pass by towards the lazy afterglow of the sun. i feel the air against my skin slow, but fleeting, like your love. straining, i can almost hear your voice as it was on that night- rhaspy as you […]

7/2/2017 (not even for a second)

i keep checking my phone, hoping to see your name on the screen. i don’t know why; each time i’m only disappointed again. i keep thinking of you, though i know that i shouldn’t. if even i can’t understand it, than what’s the use in worrying? but i keep wondering what could happen, if somehow […]

risky

[recording on soundcloud] oh it’s only recently become clear to me how completely unprepared i am to even give a smile or hold your hand- oh, i’m lost. why are your words in some foreign language that i simply cannot understand no matter how many times; how many days and weeks and nights i’ve studied […]

i’ll take the blame (unfinished song)

empty words come easier than the real ones- maybe that’s why the cost is cheap. but just like me they’re not as strong, no, they can’t hold the weight of what i mean. oh, tell me the truth. it can’t be as hard as they say, at least i know that it can’t hurt. oh, […]